Tigrelys

I'm artsy, and enjoy learning. Most of what I do is self-taught.
Art is the only place I find solace and calm in my mind. Otherwise, I am doing too many things at once.




<3 ELLES

Discussions with Chad

    • So foxy…

    • Why don’t you fall in love?

  • Dani Heavenor
    May 8
    Dani
    • I don’t know

  • Chad Zahara
    May 8
    Chad
    • Maybe you’re unlucky. Maybe you over think things. Maybe you’re a glorious lesbo and just need to find the right chiquita.

    • Maybe you’re an alien.

  • Dani Heavenor
    May 8
    Dani
    • hhaahaha, Great reasons for why i havent fallen in love

  • Chad Zahara
    May 8
    Chad
    • Yup

    • My fav one is the lesbo.

1. Space (“You can’t become playful, and therefore creative, if you’re under your usual pressures.”)

2. Time (“It’s not enough to create space; you have to create your space for a specific period of time.”)

3. Time (“Giving your mind as long as possible to come up with something original,” and learning to tolerate the discomfort of pondering time and indecision.)

4. Confidence (“Nothing will stop you being creative so effectively as the fear of making a mistake.”)

5. Humor (“The main evolutionary significance of humor is that it gets us from the closed mode to the open mode quicker than anything else.”)

Monty Python’s John Cleese on the 5 factors to make your life more creative (via explore-blog)

Louis CK (explicit)

-The sad thing is, for all our obsession with sex, and how much we love it, we suck at it. Men are terrible at sex.

-Men…we just climb on… and that’s it. We are so bad at sex, and then we wonder why women aren’t like really aggressive about sex. We think it’s ‘cause, they don’t have as much desire as we. That’s how stupid men are, that we think ‘they’re just weird, women are like fucked up in the head, ‘cause they don’t wanna just fuck all the time. If I was a woman, I’d just fuck everybody. Why don’t want they fuck all the time? I do’.

-Of course you do, ‘cause when you fuck, you gotta fuck a woman. When she fucks, she has to fuck a guy. Wildly different experiences. For men 100% of the time he is fucking a woman, it’s the greatest thing that ever happened in his life. For a woman about 40% of the time she is fucked by a guy, she’s thinking ‘I’ll get over this in a week, it’s not the worst thing, I’m not gonna cry this time’.

-Another thing, that proves how bad are men at sex is that after sex we’re looking at two very different people. The man just wants to lay there, be cool and the woman wants to cuddle. Something men love to make fun of women for. ‘She just wanna cuddle, I’ve already fucked you, just let me watch the game. ~I’m so cool~. Why is she so needy?’

-She’s not needy, you idiot, she’s horny. Because you did nothing for her. You did absolutely nothing. Her pussy is on fire, ‘cause it’s gone unfucked completely. Of course you’re fine, you climbed on (…) and rolled off. And she’s on you, because ‘what the…something has to happen. This is bullshit!’

When I’m overtired for some reason Enrique songs are hilarious. But, this conversation occurred due to this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LDtYkOrV4-E

Ells: PLEASE EXCUSE ME I DON’T MEAN TO BE RUDE, BUT TONIGHT I’M F***ING YOU
Ells: he’s so polite
Chaddicus: hahhaha
Chaddicus: “If you don’t mind, I am going to cum.”
Ells: “If it’s okay with you, I am going to fuck you harder”
Chaddicus: hahahah
Ells: “do you mind if i go down on you?
Chaddicus: “Suck on my dick, if you please.”
Chaddicus: I would appreciate it if we went down on each other.
Ells: Would it offend you if I slapped your ass?
Chaddicus: Yes, I would be honored. Please do.
Chaddicus: Oh yes, with your permission I will spray on your face.
Chaddicus: Too late.
Chaddicus: Hope it’s ok.
Ells: LOL

I am both ashamed and laughing at this conversation..

Cacophony

Self-preservation I had would only lead to apathy. The alternative leads to a much greater risk. Disassociating from everything around me. How do I ground myself when I don’t know where I am? How do you ground something you can’t feel? Crawling out of a skin that I don’t recognize as my own. Days appear to be a foggy haze, these lifeless limbs becoming mechanical.

A Playlist..

NIN - CLOSER
BENNY BENASSI - I LOVE MY SEX
NIN - LAST
NIN - PHYSICAL
QOTSA - NO ONE KNOWS
QOTSA - EVEN FLOW
ALICE IN CHAINS - GRIND
AUDIOSLAVE - GASOLINE
MSTRKRFT - SEXY RESULTS
DEADMAU5 - ALONE WITH YOU
DEFTONES - MY OWN SUMMER (SHOVE IT)
BLAQK AUDIO - BITTER FOR SWEET
DANKO JONES - CADILLAC
SOUNDGARDEN - KICKSTAND
DEFTONES - PASSENGER
TRENT REZNOR/KAREN O/ATTICUS - IMMIGRANT SONG
HOW TO DESTROY ANGELS - THE SPACE IN BETWEEN
DANNY ELFMAN - THE LITTLE THINGS
THE BLACK KEYS - HEAVY SOUL
DEFTONES - CHERRY WAVE/DIGITAL BATH/CHANGE (IN THE HOUSE OF FLIES)/LUCKY YOU
COLLEGE FEAT. ELECTRIC YOUTH - A REAL HERO
RADIOHEAD - EVERYTHING IN IT’S RIGHT PLACE
MARILYN MANSON - IF I WAS YOUR VAMPIRE
MUSE - FURY
MASSIVE ATTACK - PARADISE CIRCUS

My new tattoo that I designed (a permanent gift from my best friend)
This quote is from the short story &#8216;Bear Meat&#8217; by Primo Levi. http://www.newyorker.com/fiction/features/2007/01/08/070108fi_fiction_levi?currentPage=all &#8220;Bear meat is &#8220;the taste of being strong and free&#8221;. A group of mountaineers swap stories about their adventures, all of which involve a mistake - a central part of being free and living life to the full.&#8221;

And, if you&#8217;re too lazy to read the whole thing.. Here&#8217;s precisely where I got the quote from: &#8220;These are things that make your back broad, which isn’t something Nature gives everyone. I read somewhere—and the person who wrote this was not a mountaineer but a sailor—that the sea’s only gifts are harsh blows and, occasionally, the chance to feel strong. Now, I don’t know much about the sea, but I do know that that’s the way it is here. And I also know how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong but to feel strong, to measure yourself at least once, to find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions, facing blind, deaf stone alone, with nothing to help you but your own hands and your own head…&#8221;This quote is also in &#8216;Into The Wild&#8217;

My new tattoo that I designed (a permanent gift from my best friend)

This quote is from the short story ‘Bear Meat’ by Primo Levi. http://www.newyorker.com/fiction/features/2007/01/08/070108fi_fiction_levi?currentPage=all “Bear meat is “the taste of being strong and free”. A group of mountaineers swap stories about their adventures, all of which involve a mistake - a central part of being free and living life to the full.”


And, if you’re too lazy to read the whole thing.. Here’s precisely where I got the quote from: “These are things that make your back broad, which isn’t something Nature gives everyone. I read somewhere—and the person who wrote this was not a mountaineer but a sailor—that the sea’s only gifts are harsh blows and, occasionally, the chance to feel strong. Now, I don’t know much about the sea, but I do know that that’s the way it is here. And I also know how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong but to feel strong, to measure yourself at least once, to find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions, facing blind, deaf stone alone, with nothing to help you but your own hands and your own head…”

This quote is also in ‘Into The Wild’